Failure

There's a fire in me
Fighting hard to get out
I don't want to be
Just like everyone else around

I know I am different
God intended it that way
But failure flowed down in a torrent
And the fire was washed away

Now there's just emptyness
As though the fire was just a scam
I pray to God for forgiveness
For the disappointment that I am

I don't know where I went wrong
What happened to all those dreams
But now its been so long
That I just want to scream

I despise myself
I'm angry with God
How could I tire
Why did God put out the fire
There's so much I wanted to do
Its too late, my spirit says, because I'm wounded too

I cant seem to move on
The wounds and pain won't heal
Everyone's left me and gone
Before death now I kneel